Wednesday, April 11, 2012 4:16:49 AM
I know deeply inside me that I was wrong. There's no way I was right, not even a small chance. But I was stubborn and I never actually come to say sorry to them. Is it that hard when it comes to saying sorry?
We've been together since I was born and I have not done anything to return your love and care. We've struggled all the way. But it never feels like home to stay here. Indeed, I don't really want to stay in this world , I guess. I can't stand that we have to go and ask for government assistance. Of course I was happy that we've got help from others. You would not need to fight yourself much more, maybe to a lesser extent. But it hurts when I see myself as a useless person. I am mature and now I still cannot find a job to support you.
People always do self searching and when it comes to me, when I really do search inside myself, nothing but depression. I am nothing but a burden to you.
Mom, please stay with me forever. I want to be able to stand tall to support you. I will be with you all the time.
I know I always act like I don't care and I even get to a fight where you always come and say sorry even you weren't wrong.
I promise you that I try and try to get it under control and will be your best child.